Remembering.
Tonight I spent time, while lying flat in bed (and that's when my brains seems to work better, strangely enough! It must lead to better blood flow!!) recalling the day's events.  It was a great effort. The tinnitus seemed to be part of huge background noise in my brain, which seemed to block my efforts to think and recall. The memories are there, but the effort of concentrating to recall them is very hard.  I find my concentration wanders so I don't finish the task.  While trying to remember yesterday, I'd get sudden flashes of memories back to events int he past week, which yesterday I also thought about trying to recall.  So what the neuropsychologist says is true - it's not so much a memory problem as a concentration problem. I had some success, in short bursts, as if I had to wait for a flash of memory to break through all the noise which was trying to prevent me remembering.  So here's what I remembered:
In the morning, I remember going to P, the water dripping off the trees, no one around.  It was early.  R didn't poo in her usual spot.  I can't remember where she did poo.  Fed her some hay, but no supplement cos it finished last week, and cut some branches of that huge weed for her.  Ate yoghurt and fruit salad for brekky. Asked flat people if they wanted a change of sheets, but they said not. Went to L, to Centro per lavoro and spoke to several women there about S's wanting to take on staff and what kind of contracts he could offer, how the apprendistato system works, etc. A bit concerned they want to know the tax codes of the people he wants to employ. Suspicious they are going to check up on him, maybe send people round to check. Luckily they don't know what company I was from. Then to S's office. where he asked me to check mouldings for badly moulded ones.  First I recharged my phone at the bar, to discover to my amazement that the bar is now staffed by Chinese!! Then to C S utensileria to get new maschi and files. Then back to checking. Talked to O quite a while. They have signed contract and we discussed the move. I advised that they'd need to take the wardrobe apart.  At one point I came back in to find V had arrived and was eating lunch with S who'd bought his at a sort of takeaway place nearby. Then she left, I went to O to another utensileria where I even managed to get a new saw blade for myself. Finished checking the pieces. S was quite open and willing to talk!!! Very happy about that!!! Spent an hour hanging around at the end of the afternoon while he talked on the phone, then went home, fed hens and R, and filled the water bottles. T came, we had soup for supper, S made pasta with tuna. Then he ate chocolate and fell asleep on the sag bag. usual effort to get him to go to bed, which he did, being totally exhausted at 9pm. So a decent night's sleep - finally - after a week of averaging 5 hours per night. Tried contacting Sally, to no avail. Forgot to lock up hens, so have just done it, half an hour ago!!  It's currently 5am! Great programme about Georgia and its successful fight to stamp out corruption in the 2000s. On "The Insight", must remember another good programme on the blessed BBC.  I also remember various alarming feelings of weakness , especially in the lower calf muscles, but also lots of tingling in lower arms and legs, at times, and a spread of the numbness and concurrent itchiness across my shoulders, affecting part of the right shoulder for the first time. However, at time of writing, I'm noticing all this has died down so perhaps it was due to the Val Cd walk, which tired me out.  When Ia arrived there, I noticed I couldn't write very well.
So what a lot I DO remember!! The memories truly are there, it's the recall and concentration that is the problem. But writing helps, it helps make words flow so much better than when I try to speak.  Lately I've noticed difficulty forming coherent utterances.
While recalling yesterday, I had and have flashback memories to last week.  For example, remembering my walk to Val Cd, and everything that happened that day.
Then remembering on Sunday that after lunch of ravioli, T and I went to see AM, R and C, I didn't think to take them eggs but T took the saffron from D. Had a lovely chat to C and we've agreed to meet up in M during the winter weekends to go to exhibitions and see interesting places there.
Sunday - S suggested we come to L and have a pizza - great idea!!  Well done S for remembering my pledge of only a week earlier to meet up each week for a meal and chat! What else did I do?? had a nap, then went to R's for a nice chat. Flashback - remember trying to recharge phone online and it didn't work - furious!!
Today I asked O about my idea to recall what we had done a week ago.  She remembered she had gone to the city far with M.  I only remember doing the lesson for D and that it was a lovely sunny day. Nothing else about last Monday.
In the week -  what do I remember,? Well I have had some flashback memories of going to M and deciding my jerkin was dirty so taking it to the launderette. I also visited the telecom shop to no avail. And the photography shop about my films. Not ready yet.
I ordered new shoes on Thursday, was it? Maybe Wednesday. but got messages to say they hadn't been shipped. However they have been now. Must buy new walking boots - mine are slicks.  Wednesday M phoned because I was supposed to go for the lesson that day.  I had moved the appointment to Thursday thinking I had made a mistake, but that was the mistake. We had a nice lesson, G being there too, and M laughs such a lot! I realise that's probably the only time she laughs. Bumped into her in the Telecom shop the next day, along with the B and B people from O. S came Friday evening and the lesson went well.  Have contacted old students to see if they want to continue.  Some do, some don't.
Tuesday,? Well A came and we emptied out the shoe cupboard.  great job! Nearly forgot something last week - what was it?? No, it was the week before.  I was talking to the fact people, showing them the  hens, and suddenly realised I was supposed to be at Ms to sort out the documents for the casa vacanza registration.  But the rest of Tuesday??
Wednesday?? Just had a flashback that Friday afternoon went to the trade fair in M to S's stand.  The trade fair was mind-boggling! And it was so nice spending time with S, who appreciated my having come. we stopped at M on the way back!!
I remember doing some cooking - was it Wednesday or Tuesday? Maybe Wed. made a big big lasagne and apple pie.
The project "fat-rich , low carb diet is going well, but I'm no longer a rist. I also try to keep the "one purple food a day" part going, though blueberries no longer available. Plums and beetroot are a substitute.
Hey, given time, things do come back!! It's slow, my recall, but more's there than I thought.
I've tried listening to Rosie si prienteni ei, and got on quite well. Also purcelus Pepa. I'm bored now!!! But more positive about state of brain!!